Fat Monster.

I hate it.
I eat. And I eat.
I know I should not.
And whatever it is,
it makes me want to throw up.
It really does.

I can't do it.
I don't want to know the fact, that I have become this far.
But I hate everything as it is now.

Everytime I eat, I eat, and I eat.
And then?
This feeling.
It just needs to get out.
I don't want to be that fat monster anymore.

I want to be who I am inside.
I am still trapped in that disgusting body.
This isn't me.

I tried to stop eating. I can't.
And I'm afraid of sports. No one should see me.
I don't want people to see this.
And I don't want myself to hear all those mean comments.
But you know, they're right.

Fat, disgusting pig.
Look in this mirror.

You shouldn't be eating.
Stop it. Ok?
Stop it. Forever.